Okay, so maybe not 100% but I'm getting there. I met with my adviser at Wright State yesterday and she was awesome! She made me feel very comfortable and that the faculty is ready and willing to help us succeed as students.
The best thing she said was. "The selection process is over. You're in and once you're in, we want you to do well and succeed." Boy was that nice to hear! Not that I thought they wouldn't want me to succeed but I never really thought about it.
Then I met with another professor who got me all excited about the ideas that I'm having. He was building off of my interests and the direction I would like to go in a way that made me feel like I was definitely in the right place. I am feeling so confident with this choice for school.
As much as I hate medicine, I also know when is enough. I was on an emotional roller coaster where regulating myself was causing me to really become down and have difficulty functioning. So I decided to have an impromptu doctor appointment and he started me on Celexa.
My goal is for this to be short term to help me through the final stages of healing in addition to starting school soon. At first I was extremely resistant to the thought until a good friend of mine put it in perspective. He said that there is no reason for me to live in a state of struggle, especially trying to handle so much at once, if there is a way to subside it until I'm better.
Having to deal with the health issues of my family lately, in addition to mine, starting school and trying to heal while getting everything done... the last thing I want to do is worry about freaking out on someone for no reason so, in addition to counseling, I am going to use medicinal intervention for the short term.
I still have my moments, I am still working through things but I am handling it much better. My headaches are frequent but less intense more often then not. Being positive now is a lot easier, seeing when I'm irritable is easier for me to identify so I can express that to others before there is conflict.
I start orientation next week and classes the week after so we'll see how it goes!! My adviser said they will be more than willing to work with me if I am struggling to keep up or if I feel overwhelmed. She stressed the importance of communication so at least I am attending a school where they understand that we are all human and have different struggles sometime.
Hopefully I will just show up and do wonderful so it won't matter :) Ready to get started!!!!
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