"No"

Yesterday was just terrible in terms of functioning so I'm going to skip that sob story and move on to today.

Not that I've been feeling a ton better but, here's the thing. If you've ever had a concussion and really dealt with it properly, you know how frustrating it can be to sit around all day and do nothing. I had another doctor appointment this morning and it was a whole bunch more "No"s.

No Studying.
No Coaching.
No Physical Activity.
No Prolonged Exposure to the Heat/Sun
No Watching TV or Being on the Computer for Long Periods of Time (15 minutes)

And also, here is a paper to keep track of your symptoms on a daily basis... as if I don't think about them enough. Please rate symptoms 1-6:

Headache
Nausea
Vomiting
Balance Problems
Dizziness
Fatigue
Trouble Falling Asleep
Sleeping More Than Usual
Sleeping Less Than Usual
Drowsiness
Sensitivity to Light
Sensitivity to Noise
Irritability
Sadness
Nervousness
Feeling More Emotional
Numbness or Tingling
Feeling Slowed Down
Feeling Mentally Foggy
Difficulty Concentrating
Difficulty Remembering
Visual Problems
Other

Anything else??

Here is what I CAN do:

Rest
Rest
Drink Water
Rest
Rest
Eat (if my stomach lets me)
Rest
Rest...

I think you get the idea. My balance is so bad that he did one test and told me that was enough... oh glorious.

I know I had a mini breakdown about wanting to run away the other day. If there is anything that I have learned from having concussions before, it's make no reaction decisions and make sure I'm healed before taking on life's plan for me.

There is too much for me to deal with right now in terms of merely healing for me to worry about the future. It will be what it will be. I need to take it one day at a time and take care of myself.

Resting must sound so easy to people but, trust me, after a few days of it... it gets really old really fast and I feel like I'm gaining weight just sitting here, lol. I can't eat anything so I know I'm not but seriously, I just want to go for a run... Focus Sam.